Chapter Eight: Love Birds.

Chapter Eight
Love Birds

(At 11 in the morning on a weekend)

3abdalla: “Good morning ;**”

Noura: “Good morning sunshine ;**”

3abdalla: “Shbetsaween ilyoom ?”

Noura: “madri u?”

3abdalla: “madri chena bashoofich ?;p”

Noura: “Chena ee ;p”

3abdalla: “;*******”

Noura: “(K)”

The day goes by while me and my sisters decide that next weekend nabi na7jiz ib resort fa gelna kempinski. I called and made a reservation for us.

Noura: “3abdalla!”

3abdalla: “3yoona”

Noura: “etha 7ejazt kempinski tyey?”

3abdalla: “mnu bekoon mawjood?”

Noura: “bas ana oo khawati”

3abdalla: “eee okay”

Noura: “u’d come akeed?”

3abdalla: “yes ;**”

Noura: “ok cuz 7ejazt for next weekend etha mara7 tyey mabi aroo7”

3abdalla: “bayeey ;***”

Noura: “naaam 3endi hnak plzzzz ;p”

3abdalla: “a7awel wala”

Now im sitting in my room sooo happy thinking how fun is it gonna be!!! So I go tell my sisters tara 3abdalla beyey they all love him fa they didn’t mind.

(8 Oclock)

3abdalla: “im out”

Noura: “coming”

I go with him we cruise around everywhere and solef about next weekend. I beg him to sleep! He says wala I want to bas I’ll try my best ! this is a big step for me and him. He never slept over before. Bas I was really merta7a weyah, makint aste7i mina kilish! And he wasn’t shy of me either. We were very comfortable together.

3abdalla: “mageeetttliiich!

Noura: “shnu?”

3abdalla: “walhaaaaaaaan 3alaaaych wayed”

Noura: “hahaha, ana aktharrr, 3abali 3endik salfaaaa 9ijiya!”

He kisses my head. And holds my hand as he drops me home.

While im getting out of the car he pulls my arm I go shnu ? he says 3a6eeni bosa ;p I laugh and give him a kiss then leave ;p

I just stepped into the house while my phone buzzes.

1 New Message.

3abdalla: “a7ebiich ;********”

I smile in my place. :$

Then I reply “Mooo kithriiiiii ;*******”

The next days pass by soooo slowly!! Because all I can think of is the weekend! 2 days left!!!! I msj 3abdalla.

Noura: “can I tell u something”

3abdalla: “anything”

Noura: “since u might sleep over I want u to know ina when I said nam 3endi I meant nam 3endi as in lets sleep, not the other meaning.”

3abdalla: “I know shqa9dich wala, a9lan ana ma artha asawi hal shay weyach”

Noura: “goood I love u ;****”

3abdalla: “I love u more ;**”

(2 days later) I’m packing my clothes! So excited !

We drove with my sister and akheeeran we9alna! We checked in and everything and 3abdalla told me he’d be there at around 7:30 at night getla ok. So we did our thing had fun until the night came.

3abdalla: “shway woo9al”

Noura: “okay yaaaaay ;***”

3abdalla: “We9aalt!”

I went and got him. Ga3adna weya khawati oo solafna kilna. Until he told me nouro come and show me around ;p so I got up and showed him around, then ga3adna ib my room alone.

We were laying down on the bed watching tv when I asked him.

Noura: “Naaaam hni !”

3abdalla: “wala wedi bas bacher at 7 il9ib7 3endi sheqil weya obooy”

Noura: “okaay :S”

He kisses me and says sorry wala mara thanya I will promise ;***

Mushkilat 3abdalla he likes watching boring stuff wana kila a3a9ib agola e7e6 a show that I like to watch wehwa e7eb discovery chanel oo ashya2 maleeqa chethi ;p fa wana ga3da a6ale3 this stupid thing where a human races an animal he fell asleep wana fathya a6ale3 hal show chan ghayarta min zeman madam ohwa nayim ;p so I get up to find the remote and he wakes up.

3abdalla: “olaaa ana nimt?”

Noura: “ee shwaya bas”

3abdalla: “yalaaa khan agooom amshii”

he gets up and fixes his clothes and pulls me up from the bed so I give him his phone and keys while he’s hugging me and says za3lana?

Noura: “noo ;s”

3abdalla: “3ayal shfeech?”

I stand there not hugging him back ;p

3abdalla: “khalas anam hni ;p”

Noura: “e7liiiiiiif!”

3abdalla: “wala ;p” now I hug him back ;p

(a7eeeeeeeb hal walaaaad that’s whats on my mind!!!)

so we get back into bed laying down watching the stupid discovery chanel as he falls asleep. Im still awake so I get up wanting to go to the bathroom bas mabi a6ale3 9oot so aroo7 the other 7amam 3end khawati. Re7t wela kil khawati naymeen dashayt 7amamhum wela lama 6ela3t ma ashoof ila 3abdalla wagef 3end ilbab ;p kharaa3niiiiii!! Hes like half asleep cuz he doesn’t know what hes doing out the room in his boxers! So I pull him back and ask him why hes up he goes ga3ed adawrich ;p he kisses my head and goes back to sleep and I fall asleep as well ib hdoomi 7etan jooteyey ma fe9a5ta!

At 5 am ashoof 3abdalla ga3ed esheel my shoes ;p I start laughing cuz makint mestaw3eba ;p chan arid anam.

The morning comes and I see 3abdalla wearing his clothes so I get up, he tells me to go back to sleep I say no ;p im up now. Lamaita oo getla thanks for sleeping over he really made me happy. Wa9alta lay ilbab oo I went back to bed ;p

Chapter Seven: Behind us.

Chapter Seven
Behind us

A couple of months passed by like taqreeban 5 I didn’t msj him or call him since that night. For all I know he could be dead! So I was living my life hurt deep inside but acting as if im ok. I hate it when people think im sad then they keep asking and asking and it gets me even more sad so I just toughen up like my father taught me.

So mara kina 6al3een, ray7een kempinski jlai3a which is now known as “Sea Shell” stupid name ;p .. anyways kina ga3deen dakhil secound cup wela ma ashoof ila ekhti yayatli rakith!

Shahad: “NOUROO!”

Noura: “WHAT!”

Shahad: “3ABDALLA!”

Noura : “ 7IIIILLLFAAAAAY!”

Shahad: “walaa goo see! Hes sitting on that table ili matroosa guys, thahra 3alaina! ”

So im peeking at the table to see and I saw :S I felt this rush inside of me like im soo happppy to seeee himm and im mad as hell why he doesn’t miss me! I miss him like crazy!! So I just told them lets leave now. I was sooooo sad but I kept smiling acting like I was fine. We walked out the door and im glad he didn’t see me. We rushed to the car. Ga3deen dakhil ana oo ekhti na6reen il baji eyoon wela mashoof ila 3abdalla ga3ed yamshi chan eshoofni ga3da bil car bas babi maftoo7 chan egool off noura? Wehwa weya rfeeja chan a9ik ilbab wag3ad walif wayhi chena mashefta .. washoofa edesh his car and hes staring at me! I take a deep breath and act like nothing is happening. We left the parking lot and im holding my tears inside, leaning on the window tear drops falling on my sun glasses. Wishing I hadn’t come today :S

The morning came and I found a text msj.

3abdalla: “ahlayn”

omg!!!!! I don’t know what to say. Should I reply? Or should I ignore him like he did to me?

Noura: “hala”

I had to reply I missssss himm soooooo much I cant ignore! Its too hard!!!!!!!

3abdalla: “shloonich?”

Noura: “Zayna, u?”

3abdalla: “7amdila, walhan 3alaych”

abaaaaaaay a7ebaaaaaa !!!!!! I don’t wanna act too pushy so I have to talk 3adi.

Noura: “me 2 :D”

3abdalla: “ana akthar, abi ashoofich”

Noura: “Laysh ?”

3abdalla: “because I miss u”

Noura: “ohh okaay, meta? Oo wayn ?”

3abdalla: “kayfich, now?”

Noura: “ummm, why should i? ”

3abdalla: “I know ur mad but im sorry, u wont understand”

Noura: “make me understand”

3abdalla: “when I see u I will”

Noura: “ok pick me up at 7”

3abdalla: “I cant wait till 7 ;***”

Noura: “hehe me neither ;*”

So im at home waiting and thinking to myself is this really happening! Am I really gonna see him! I missss him! I wanna hug him! My phone rings, “ana bara”.

I go outside to the car my heart is beating so fast. I open the door and there he was smiling. The smile I would never forget. I sit inside he leans over to give me a hug and 2 kisses on the cheek.

Noura: “Haaaa yal ga6e3”

3abdalla: (smiling) “wala walhan 3alaych 7aaaaayl”

Noura: “good me 2”

3abdalla: “Shsawaitay today?”

Noura: “Mara7 etgooli sh9ayer?”

3abdalla: “intay narfazteeeni”

Noura: “Laysh?”

3abdalla: “Because shnu itgoleenli na5eth break? Il7een ana gayelich imte7anat oo chethi shako break”

Noura: “yeah so I can let u study”

3abdalla: “u can let me study without taking a break 3adi shnu cham yoom bas”

3abdalla: “may9eer everytime I get busy u wanna leave me, tara im gonna get busy wayed ya3ni bas mo ya3ni it’hedeeni or 3ala goltich na5eth break”

Noura: “I’m sorry I said that bas kint 7ayl metnarfiza ma3aref chethi ag3ad wan6er “

3abdalla: “te3alemay, ana magetlich shahar kamil, cham yoom bas”

Noura: “okay”

3abdalla: “za3lana?”

Noura: “la la shako”

3abdalla: “madri 3abali ;p”

Noura: “hehe hows ur grades?”

3abdalla: “il7amdila good except for biology ;p”

Noura: “waiiih yala shid 7aylik”

He drops me home I’m sitting in the kitchen counter eating corn flakes, he texts me.

3abdalla: “et7ebeeni? :$”

Noura: “More and more each day ;******”

3abdalla: “7abeeeebi ;*** ana akthar, so were ok ?”

Noura: “Yeah ;p we’re always ok :p”

3abdalla: “haha, shga3ed tsaween?”

Noura: “akil corn flakes, u?”

3abdalla: “reading, goleeli lama itkhal9een”

Noura: “okaaay ;*”

(15 minutes later)

Noura: “done!”

3abdalla: “adeg?”

I called him and we talked for about an hour and a half until he fell asleep. So we were back on and ready to start over. We put our past behind us and start fresh.

Chapter Six: Why Me?

Chapter Six: Why me?

Valentine’s day was coming up it had been one year for me and 3abdalla. It was the beginning of February I was happily in love with him and I thought he was too. Until we had a large argument I wondered to myself is he getting bored? So I texed him.

Noura: “shfeek hal ayam metghayer :s”

3abdalla: “La finals”

Noura: “ee okay bas 9arlik cham yom matdeg wela etdez msjat ila lama ana adez awal, mo min 3awaydik.”

3abdalla: “ee wala sorry shasawi mashqool 7ayl bil madrisa”

Noura: “ahaa, ee khalas ana abeek tenja7, hatha aham shay”

(he didn’t reply)

I was getting pissed ina laysh yes7ab 3alay ! fa lama esawi chethi ana ag3ad wafaker! Mafi shay ma 6ab ib bali. Is there another girl? Is he afraid of commitment? Am I nothing to him? Does he love me? I don’t know the answer to those questions! Mako ila as2ela!

The next day I texted him.

Noura: “Adri inta mashqool weya ur tests bas its making me think a lot”

3abdalla: “about?”

Noura: “us :s , r u getting bored of me?”

3abdalla: “Noura latfakreeen chethi! Wala getlich limte7anat im2athra feeni abi at5araj! Lo I got bored chan I told u. mo noo3i askit, lo abi shay chan gelta ib wayhich 3adi”

Noura: “okay, I don’t know cuz I’ve never seen u like this and u know its going to be a year in a couple of days fa gelt yemkin u don’t want us to be serious.”

3abdalla: “laa shako, it’s the tests that’s all”

a whole week went by and he’s still this way, never asking about me, very boring, ignoring my msjs, I hate this!!!!! I cant stand this!

Noura: “One msj a day wont hurt ya3ni!”

3abdalla: “sorry wala! mashqool”

Noura: “shda3wa mashqool 3abdalla ya3ni mategdar wenta raye7 school or wenta ga3ed bil dewaniya 6ool il yoom bas itdezli one msj! That’s not too much to ask for tara.”

3abdalla: “sorry, ana min il madresa seeda arid ilbayt adris wanam shway wagoom adris again , ag3ad bil dewaniya shway wamshi sorry”

Noura: “khalas ok, I think me and you should take a break”

3abdalla: “shloon?”

Noura: “I want u to study, but I cant be like this waiting for u to call or text me it gets me mad! Fa lama u miss me and want me then call”

3abdalla: “ya3ni matabeeni ?”

Noura: “imbala bas were on a break for a while”

3abdalla: “3ala ra7tich”

Noura: “bye”

3abdalla: “bye”

I burst into to tears lock myself in the bathroom laying on the floor thinking did I do the right thing? Or was I just selfish wanting him to talk to me bedal la he study’s! my sisters and cousin are knocking on my door asking me to open. I say noo! They know its something to do with 3abdalla so they start singing me a song so that I would laugh .. I open the door and laugh and go play with them in the 9ala.

The whole time im thinking where’s 3abdalla? Wat is he doing right now ? I miss him :S
Days pass by im still miserable! I want him to want me ;s but he didn’t call or msj me, I feel like he doesn’t even care! And that’s when I discovered he has no feelings.

2 weeks pass by without me texting him or him texting me im missing him to damn much! I don’t care Im gonna msj him!

Noura: “Hii”

(no response)

I waited for 2 hours.

Noura: “3abdalla shloon imte7anatik?”

(no response)

I burst into tears! Hes not gonna answer me now is he? So I start dialing his number. The phone is ringing, but still no response! I wait 5 minutes and call again, he turned off his phone!!! WTF! Now im pissed!!! I start calling over and over until it rang again and still no answer! I didn’t stop calling until he answered me.

3abdalla: “na3am?”

Noura: “laysh matrid 3alay shfeek ?”

3abdalla: “laysh daga malyoon mara?”

Noura: “cuz kint abi a7acheek”

3abdalla: “intay sheftay ina maradayt 3ala ur msjs wela ur phone calls laysh ham itdegeen!?”

Noura: “3abdalla shil salfa ! I thought we ended on good terms, makint adri inik bet3a9ib 3alay!”

3abdalla: “inzayn shtabeen il7een?”

Noura: “mint im7acheeni?”

3abdalla: “La"

I close the phone and cryyyyyyy!!! I couldn’t believe that this was my 3abdalla! The guy I talked to for one whole year every single day! The man I loved and I couldn’t live without!!! Why is he doing this ? what did I do? I thought of his education before I thought of myself! Wasn’t I being a good girl friend? Why is he treating me like this?!!! I don’t deserve this! Why is this actually happening! WHY ME!!!??? Those were my feelings as I layed on the bed, under the covers, covered in tears. Wishing to die. I felt pain like I never did before with anyone. This was the longest relationship I ever had. I truly madly deeply fell in love with this boy and I couldn’t imagine my life with him not in it.